Dullest Day EVER.

I want my own little place so bad!

I feel as if everyone moved out of their parents' homes this year and into their own apartments. Everyone is talking about packing up and leaving and I come home from work and survey my cluttered room with the dusty beanie babies on the stereo and bamboo pictures on the wall. It seemed so small and confined and not comfortable. It wasn't decorated or laid out in a way that appeals to me anymore. Too much clutter. Too much STUFF! I feel like I need to pack it all up and go elsewhere to reorganize all my little trinkets correctly, and throw out the things I no longer need. I try and do it now, clean out my room, but no matter what I do more things pop out and it always feels cluttered and full.

Mom says that to get an apt. now is silly. I should save all I can and buy a house young to build equity. But I cant imagine living at home for another what...5 to 6 years? I want to come home to a place thats me, with carpets and worn furniture and an old T.V. set and some nice pictures on the wall and wallpaper and someday a dog. And pretty curtains. I don't even know if I could live with someone. Sometimes I really want to, and realistically, I'd probably have to since I can't afford it alone, but I'm awfully picky with that. Hence dorm living never being an option.

I really go back and forth on this alot. Sometimes I'm content to just live at home especially no where I can come and go pretty much as I please, but sometimes that makes me feel stuck and holds me back from progressing. I don't know we will see.

I'm bored and honestly started this post for that reason alone. I just got home from work and after standing mindlessly in front of an open fridge for a good 7 minutes I decided to mindlessly sit in front of a computer for a good 40 minutes...

I made decent money at work today but I feel like everyone has been in a sour mood and no one has wanted to talk. Maybe it's just me. Midweek hangovers aren't something I intend on having again anytime soon. I wish I had someone to call just to chat with without feeling like I'd be pestering.

Alright this is lame, I'm going to go watch food network and talk to Moepup, even though he hates being bugged at night.

Pleasant dreams, I hope.